True contentment is a
thing as active as agriculture. It is the power of getting out of any situation
all that there is in it. It is arduous and it is rare. The absence of this
digestive talent is what makes so cold and incredible the tales of so many
people who say they have been “through” things; when it is evident that they
have come out on the other side quite unchanged. A man might have gone “through”
a plum pudding as a bullet might go through a plum pudding; it depends on the
size of the pudding--and the man. But the awful and sacred question is “Has the
pudding been through him?” Has he tasted, appreciated, and absorbed the solid
pudding, with its three dimensions and its three thousand tastes and smells?
Can he offer himself to the eyes of men as one who has cubically conquered and
contained a pudding? In the same way we may
ask of those who profess to have passed through trivial or tragic experiences
whether they have absorbed the content of them; whether they licked up such
living water as there was. It is a pertinent question in connection with many
modern problems. Thus the young genius
says, “I have lived in my dreary and squalid village before I found success in
Paris or Vienna.” The sound philosopher will answer, “You have never lived in
your village, or you would not call it dreary and squalid.” Thus the Imperialist,
the Colonial idealist (who commonly speaks and always thinks with a Yankee
accent) will say, “I've been right away from these little muddy islands, and
seen God's great seas and prairies.” The sound philosopher will reply, “You
have never been in these islands; you have never seen the weald of Sussex or
the plain of Salisbury; otherwise you could never have called them either muddy
or little.” Thus the Suffragette
will say, “I have passed through the paltry duties of pots and pans, the
drudgery of the vulgar kitchen; but I have come out to intellectual liberty.”
The sound philosopher will answer, “You have never passed through the kitchen,
or you never would call it vulgar. Wiser and stronger women than you have
really seen a poetry in pots and pans; naturally, because there is a poetry in
them.” It is right for the village violinist to climb into fame in Paris or
Vienna; it is right for the stray Englishman to climb across the high shoulder
of the world; it is right for the woman to climb into whatever cathedrae or
high places she can allow to her sexual dignity. But it is wrong that any of
these climbers should kick the ladder by which they have climbed. But indeed these
bitter people who record their experiences really record their lack of
experiences. It is the countryman who has not succeeded in being a countryman
who comes up to London. It is the clerk who has not succeeded in being a clerk
who tries (on vegetarian principles) to be a countryman. And the woman with a
past is generally a woman angry about the past she never had. When you have really exhausted an experience you always reverence and love it. The two things that nearly all of us have thoroughly and really been through are childhood and youth. And though we would not have them back again on any account, we feel that they are both beautiful, because we have drunk them dry. |
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