I spent the tenth
summer of my childhood, the most memorable months of my life, in
western Norway at the mountain farm where my mother was born. What remain most
vivid in my mind are the times I shared with my Grandfather Jorgen. As an American, I always thought
people simply bought whatever they needed. Whether Grandfather knew this, I
don’t know. But it seems he wanted to teach me something, because
one day he said, “Come. I have something for you.” I followed him into the basement, where
he led me to a workbench by a window. “You should have a toy boat. You can sail
it at Storvassdal,” he said, referring to a small
lake a few miles from the house. Swell, I thought, looking
around for the boat. But there was none. Grandfather picked up a block of wood, about
18 inches long. “The boat is in there,” he said. “You can
bring it out.” Then he handed me a razor-sharp ax. I wasn’t sure what to do, so
Grandfather showed me how to handle the tool. I started to chop away to shape
the bow. Later, after he taught me the proper use of hammer and
chisel, I began to hollow out the hull. Often Grandfather joined me in
the basement, repairing homemade wooden rakes or sharpening tools. He answered
my questions and made suggestions, but he saw to it I did all the work myself. ”It’ll be a fine boat, and you’ll be making
it all with your own hands,” he said. “No one can give you what you do for
yourself.”The words rang in my head as I worked. Finally I finished the hull and
made a mast and sail. The boat wasn’t much to look at, but I was proud of
what I had built. Then, with my creation, I headed
for Storvassdal. Climbing the mountain slope, I entered the woods and followed
a steep path. I crossed tiny streams, trod on spongy moss and ascended slippery
stone steps – higher, higher until I was above the timberline. After four or
five miles, I came at last to a small lake that had been carve out by a
glacier. Its sloping sides were covered with stones of all shapes and sizes. I launched my boat and daydreamed
while a slight breeze carried the little craft to an opposite shore. The air
was crisp and clean. There was no sound but the occasional warble of a bird. I would return to the lake many
times to sail my boat. One day dark clouds came in, burst open and poured
sheets of rain. I pressed myself against a large boulder and felt its captured
warmth. I thought of “Rock of Ages” (“… let me hide myself in thee”). Through
the rain, I saw my little boat pushing its way over the ripples. I imagined a
ship bravely fighting a turbulent sea. Then the sun came out, and all was well
again. A crisis developed when we were
ready to return to America. “You cannot bring that boat home with you,” my
mother said. We already had too much baggage I pleaded, but to no avail. With saddened heart, I
went to Storvassdal for the last time, found that large
boulder, placed my boat in a hollow space under its base, piled
stones to hide it and resolved to return one day to recover my treasure. I said good-by to my grandfather,
not knowing I would never see him again. “Farewell,” he said, as he clasped my
hand tightly. In the summer of 1964, I
went to Norway with my parents and my wife and children. One day I left the
family farmhouse and hiked up to Storvassdal, looking for the large boulder. There
were plenty around. My search seemed hopeless. I was about to give up when I saw
a pile of small stones jammed under a boulder. I slowly removed the stones and
reached into the hollow space beneath the boulder. My hand touched something
that moved. I pulled the boat out and held it in my hands. For 34 years it had
been resting there, waiting for my return. The rough, bare-wood hull and mast
were hardly touched by age; only the cloth sail had disintegrated. I shall never forget that moment.
As I cradled the boat, I felt my grandfather’s presence. He had died 22
years before, and yet he was there. We three were together again –
Grandfather and me and little boat, the tangible link that bound us together. I brought the boat back to the
farm for the others to see and carved “1930” and “1964” on its side. Someone
suggested I take it home to America. “No”, I said. “Its home is under that
boulder at Storvassdal.” I took it back to its resting place. I returned to the lake in 1968,
1971, 1977 and 1988. Each time as I held the little boat and carved the year on
its side, my grandfather seemed near. My last trip to Storvassdal was
in 1991. This time I brought two of my granddaughters from America: Catherine, 13, and
Claire, 12. As we climbed the mountain, I
thought of my grandfather and compared his life with that of my granddaughters.
Catherine and Claire are made of the same stuff as their ancestors. They are
determined and independent – I see it in the way they carry themselves at work
and play. And yet my grandfather seemed to have so little to work with, while
my granddaughters have so much. Usually the things we dreamed of,
then work and struggle for, are what we value most. Have my granddaughters,
blessed with abundance, been denied life’s real pleasures? Working tirelessly on that isolated farm, my
grandfather taught me that we should accept and be grateful for what we have – whether
it is much or little. We must bear the burdens and relish the joys. There is so
much we cannot control, but we must try to make things better when we are
able. We must depend upon ourselves to make our own way as best we can. Growing up in a
comfortable suburban home, my granddaughters have been presented with a
different situation. But I hope – I believe –
they will in their own way be able to cope as well as my grandfather coped, and
learn the lesson my grandfather taught me all those years ago. On the day I took them
to Storvassdal, I hoped they would somehow understand the importance
of the little boat and its simple message of self-reliance. High in the mountain, I
hesitated to speak lest I disturb our tranquility. Then Claire looked up and
broke my reverie as she said softly, “Grandpa, someday
I’ll come back.” She paused. “And I’ll bring my children.” |
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